Ben Lomond Blue

I used to absolutely hate acrylic paint. It dried too fast, it was thick and sticky, it wasted itself on my palette--which was made for watercolors by the way, not acrylics. But it still held a promise to me despite my frustration. I'd notice artwork done in this medium that would speak to me despite my predispostion. I still felt like I didn't have what it took to paint quickly enough to work in acrylics.

Then last year Ogden Pioneer Days decided to commission artists to paint twenty-four life-size fiberglass horses and place them at various spots around the city. The horses could be painted in oils, but I think that would be a mistake for anyone. Oils have a very slow drying time and need at least six months to cure before using a final varnish. The horses would be clear coated with an automotive finish in a much shorter time period, which would leave oil paint suseptible to cracking in the future. For me acrylic paint was the only logical medium. But of course that means, I would have to paint in acrylics! But what to do if I "cant"?

People kept asking me if I was going to paint a horse, but I decided against even submitting a design to the selection committee because I knew I wasn't prepared to work in acrylics, let alone use them to paint a life size horse. I like to jump at a challenge but its important to be sure you're wearing you're parachute when you skydive; in other words, I wanted a challenge but I had to respect my limitations. I knew however, that the horses of July 2008 were only the first wave for in another year, there would be more horses and a second chance. There would also be more artists submitting designs and perhaps a smaller opportunity for me to be chosen, but a chance is a chance.

For the past year, I decided to study acrylic paint. There was one day in particular, a day I felt very sad because the person I was attached to was gone, and the sun was pouring over the velvety petals of roses in a downtown park. While I was struggling with my loss, I felt an urgency to get myself in a different mindset and had set out this late morning specifically to take photographs of the roses. They were in perfect bloom. I later used one of these references to create a painting for an art show at the Union Station in Ogden, another venture I took delibertately to get my mind off this person and onto brighter things. All artists included in this show would be donating a 5x7 painting. I thought it would be a good idea for me, not only because I would hopefully get my name circulating in another area, but because I set out with the plan to use acrylic paint. I avoided it for so long, but it was time to learn something new.

It turned out I loved the painting so much I couldn't part with it. I did another painting at the last moment to donate to the art show, and kept my new one because I did not know I could create something so beautiful to me out of something I had once found so ugly. Ever since that experience I have fallen more and more in love with acrylics. So in February 2009, when the applications for Ogden Pioneer Days horses began appearing again, I took the opportunity.

By the middle of May, I figured I would not be chosen because I had heard nothing from the committee about my application. I was a little disappointed because I really wanted "painting a life-size horse" to be one of my new experiences for the year. It also would be great exposure for my artistic skill. But at least I turned in an application this year. Then at the end of May, I received a call asking if I would paint one.

When I looked at the date I started painting and the date I finished, it came to exactly sixteen days. That's not a great deal of time to paint anything, especially when it's a horse. At least this one didn't move. When I look at the amount of work I put into this, I realize I wouldn't have been able to do this a year ago, even in twice the amount of time. It took that time to learn to use and appreciate a new medium and realize I can use these tubes of paint just as well as I use any other.

The horse is on display in front of Ogden Blue on 175 Historic 25th Street. She is called "Ben Lomond Blue" as the mountain is the focus of my design. I consider this one of my greatest artistic achievements and it never would have been possible if I held onto my prior attitude. I am very grateful to have had the opportunity to paint this horse. Even with such a short time frame, it was worth all the effort.